Pity Party!

So a couple months ago our world turned upside down and we are now getting to move to New Jersey this summer. I have wanted to write about it but there is that unwritten rule that all blog posts should be cheerful and light, angry or annoyed, or if you absolutely must be depressing it must at least be witty. Well every time I try to write something that follows the rules I just feel sick, depressed and not the least bit witty. So I have decided to revel in my pitiful sadness and instead of looking on the bright side of things I am going to throw myself a full blown, all out pity party and write about why I am sad to be moving. Then, if all goes according to plan I will have exorcised my negative feelings and I can think and write about all the wonderful blessings that await us in New Jersey. So here goes, get your raincoats on and your violins out.




Reasons I am sad to be moving:

1. I LOVE being close to so much of my family. After years of having only a couple or even no family members at my childrens' special events (blessings, baptisms, birthdays) it has been so wonderful to have so many men around the Priesthood circle that they have to squeeze tight so that everyone can reach the head of my little one. I love being able to see two of my sisters pretty much whenever I want. I love being able to visit my parents when Aaron is gone on a trip and I feel like I am going to lose my mind. I love that my children know their grandparents so well and see them more than once or twice a year where half the time is spent getting comfortable with them again. I love getting to know my nieces and nephews and watching them grow up. I love that there are so many babies to hold since I am done having babies of my own. I love being able to go on sister outings and trips. I think that I would be willing to live just about anywhere to be able to enjoy being near my family like this.




2. I love my neighbors. I have pretty much the most perfect, wonderful neighbors here and since the lady we bought our house from was totally crazy they think that we are pretty great in comparison. My next door neighbor Christy's husband (he was our neighbor too) passed away a couple weeks ago and at the funeral my neighbor and her kids kept saying how grateful they were that she has us there as neighbors to help her out. I felt like a horrible traitor knowing that we were knowing and that she didn't know it. Her husband was diagnosed with cancer at the same time all of our moving stuff happened and there was never a good time to add more to their burden so we didn't tell Christy about the move till today and she started crying and kept on saying how scared she was to get another neighbor like the lady who lived here before and that she just felt sick. I felt pretty sick too.




3. I love my city. Millville city is one of the greatest places on earth to live. We love the people, we love the school, we love it all. I am on the City Council here and I have enjoyed it so much. This is the closest thing I have had to a job since I started having kids and it has been great. I am not normally into politics and can't see myself doing anything like this anywhere else.


4. I love my ward. Aaron and I both serve in the primary, him as a teacher, me as the chorister and we love our callings. Our ward is warm and loving and kind and I will admit I really like being able to walk to Church in good weather or drive back home to get something I forgot without much inconvenience.




5. I love my house. We liked our house when we moved in and we have since painted all the rooms, replaced tile, added a garage and a large family room so now our house is pretty much perfect. I just finished painting the kids' rooms the colors they chose and now after only a few months I am painting them tan so that we can sell the house. I didn't like the tile when we moved in and just last week we spent a weekend replacing it with tile that I really like. This is the second time that we have decided to move right after getting the house just the way we wanted it but last least last time it was my choice to move and we made money on the house. This time we will take a hit on the house.

There are more reasons I am sad to move but these are the big ones. Now for a quiz, without reading back, how many times did I use the word Love in this post? Lots of times and I meant every one. I love where I am at and I am sad to move. I am also relatively disgusted with how week and shallow I have found myself to be during this trial. Moving across the country is such a little thing compared to the trials that people all around us are going through yet here I am complaining and crying over a move. Pretty pathetic huh?


Well now I guess it is time to turn my frown upside and smile that frown away (I do singing time in the nursery as well). There are lots of great things about moving to New Jersey and adventures in store for our family. Watch out New Jersey, cause here we come.